Wow so to get back in the pittsburgh scene of some sort, I wanted to join some kind of clubs okay. Well there is a japanese conversation club that I think is held once a month, I really want to go but I have low self confidence. I'm really afraid I will be there with someone I knew/know....I really wanted to get out of pittsburgh I really just want to erase my past. So maybe going to a Japanese language club would be bad...maybe I can join a brand new club some kind i would have never thought to join before.
(<--Sorry thats my cracked out hello kitty pumpkin lanteern XD)
i really wanted to start over...so i left...or more like ran, so a lot of friends/ppl i know are upset with me. I don't like to face my problems so I will be super anxious of a chance to run into them D:..so maybe that won't be a good idea. I know the more i run the worse it gets and the more problems i create when in actuality i just want to avoid problems in my personal life! it's so hard for me I'm not as socially intuned like most people are...I tend to push ppl away unconciously after a while...then i always am afraid they are mad and ignore them like mad...so it gets worse then if i would have just faced it D:

I just don't know what other clubs or class to take. I want to be active again...until school. I feel depressed, I hope my sister gets here quickly with candy and hoagie so i can binge on that and watch TV.




Wow I don't feel too hot today, major cramps yesterday. Halloween today! Happy Halloween!

Yesterday me and Ness Carved the pumpkins. We are so artistic...NOT. Mines is HK on crack...I dun even know what Her's said XD. I have today left to keep my halloween blackberry theme...T.T, i'll still keep it anyways haha i never really let anyone touch my cell so they will never know.

Wow All morning I have been watching These two youtube comedians...they are so funny check them out okay their youtube handle is "justkiddingfilms" Very Funny indeed!

I feel asleep on Shudder and on A Tale of Two Sisters. BOOO...I'll watch maybe a tale of two sisters today after I watch the BET Awards!

Can you believe I haven't found a picture I want to edit in photoshop XD, finally i have a photo editing program and no picture to edit...Siao yea.













Wow amazing I feel so energized this early in the morning it is 5 am. I already posted 2 halloween entries to Gyaru_graphics!! I'm happy, I got the graphics up before halloween ^.^.

Yesterday I did watch Hansel and Gretal. It was a beautiful movie...vivid imagery and a well paced plot! It wasn't in the least bit scary, although I was very anxious throughout the movie due to the circumstances in the storyline...but i am sure that was how i was supposed to be feeling. I really do recommend this movie, it's great...never a dull moment.

I also watched Death Bell. Since it's almost Halloween I was trying to watch a Scary movie! eeh, It was scary as much as it was Gory. I really don't like movies that look dirty, like Saw and Devils advocate. for me it takes away from the scare factor it's like your tryin to hard to make it scary...leave it to the acting. Way to much blood etc. for me. I'd give it a 3/5 since the plot was pretty good.

I will finish the rest of my list today....promise XD



Okay, I got CS3 photoshop. I can't wait to use it! I will now Perfect my pictures instead of taking 500xxmillion pictures to try and get a perfect shot! i can save money on batteries for my camera now.

I'm going to watch Hansel and Gretal today. I hope it is not scary I heard it was just a twisted version of the fairy tale. I'll review it later just like a I did koizora....oooh that movie still makes me so mad.

ahh so like I was totally spazzin today my mobile phone was acting like an ass hole and I wanted to halloween-a-fy it! So totally just kept trying every way I knew on how to DL themes and finally got one and downloaded a ringtone the "This is halloween" ringtone from night before christmas. so fuckin beautiful.

everytime someone calls I spazz. XD cuz like pumpkins come up and the halloween ringtone plays...luv it. Call me a nerd if ya like.

I'll probably be back lats yea.



hehe well of course you might be able to see that I did not finish everything on that list.

this is what I was able to accomplish.

-type up rez
-make breakfast
-clean living room
-take shower
-confirm rez was received.

ooh and i through in something extra and took out the garbage!

Now for Koizora 恋空

That movie is totally the shit. no wonder it was the most popular for 2007 in Japan. It was perfect and it made me cry (T.T) How embarrassing!

I have a really bad toothache right now, so I will now sign off ...Bai Bai!



Okay I'm addicted to blogspot! I admit it.

anyways at 6:00am I am making a promise to

1. type up Rez and send that to kwoo! next
2. Type up analysis and send off to St. B ASAP!
3. throw clothes into the Laundry
4. Make Breakfast
5. Clean Living room

-----if that is all done by 8:00am----- then
1. call and Confirm Rez was received
2. call and Confirm Analysis was received and printed
3. Try and Get Mo to make time for me so that i can walk her through and to go over how to set up an online account at ***.com

---if that is done by 9:00am--- then

1. clean jungmin's tank
2. take a shower
3. Watch KOIZORA!!!!!!

i got my game face on >.< I shall do everything on this list!!!! no one and nothing shall stop me....only set back is i have to add more to the analysis wAAAH





Hey Blog, good mornin'!

Anyways I have to get the MAC Shade stick in sharkskin....I NEED it!!! I think i may have to visit an actual store for the online website does not offer shark skin as an option. I'm really sick of my powder shadow. I have been rocking the smokey eye effect as of late so that shade stick is a must *.*

Someone was offering to sale this check tralala dress...I want it D:, I'm pretty broke to spend that much on that kind of dress in this weather that will be approaching soon.

I will be getting my hamster maybe this week! wuhoo Xiao always finds a way to get what she wants ^.^...So I have been watching reality t.v. a lot lately. Mostly those VH1 reality shows

Real Chance at love, Is okay. Chance is my man though he is so funny. The way he was talking about that stalker girl was crackin man. Rock of Love Charm school is okay, At first i didn't like Heather but I like her the more i see her i didn't get a chance to catch her on rock of love season 1 but i did get to see her on "i love money" and some on "rock of love 2" and now thiss how, she isn't to bad. New york goes to hollywood. That missy is way to much but i have been following her since the beginning so hehe imma stick wit her.

I should go lots of work today. Luckily I knocked off some things from my list today and actually vacuumed which wasn't on the list so yay.

I'm off!




Wow I still haven't got any work done XD. It's so hot I can't really concentrate....I think i might just conk out for the night.

<--that's my mp3 player is it so wrong that I have 8 video performances of TVXQ's Mirotic, 3 love in the Ice performances, 1 Hey don't bring me down performance, plus their Mirotic PV on it **hehe** such a nerd right?
I love watching video's on that they are so clear and bright! it just sucks i have to use mp4 format.






So tomorrow this is on my list:

Give facial mask to self Give another product review --might wait until monday-- Type up natal chart analysis and Email off to Saint B Wash clothing and Bedding Finish Downloading Brown Sugar Macchiatto

Monday
Retrieve hard copy of analysis Clean Jung's tank Clean off computer and check for virus

I want to check GW before I get off, maybe i'll translate another gal article. Need to brush up on my Japanese. My sister is so funny, i swear she is smarter than me but doesn't act like it. She was at work and some asians came into her store and she can actually understand a little bit of what they were saying **chinese** it was funny....so her watching TW drama is a good thing she is unaware she is soaking up the lingo.




I feel so sick. not as sick as earlier but i don't feel well.
<---my shoe looks so huge here Xd...lp love
i initially got on the computer to finish typing my natal chart analysis since i did more research last night in bed and expanded it with information from a different reference.

I still have to wait until Monday to get a hard copy for it so there is no rush and plus i want it to be expansive as possible. i think i have had microsoft word the empty document open for like 5hrs haha. im such a procrastinator!

I actually spoke words to my younger sister just 2 and one was just a grunt. she asked if i was okay because my mom asked her to check on me. i know it sounds petty but it isn't as bad as it seems. we both just don't put effort in interacting it's not one ignoring the other...no one is just making a move.

I gave the mall a visit. blah same ol same ol. nothing compares to king of prussia. i remember the day the lego store opened about a month ago at king of prussia the line was sooo long! that day i wasn't feeling good eithor and just wanted to leave anyways.



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***Yawn****
I am so tired! I went to bed around 5am and woke up around 9am what kept me going was a big hearty oatmeal breakfast. That really is not enough sleep though for me. Not to mention I did two Charts! Astrology charts today. I initially was bored and started one for myself which took about 4 hours. I didn't really get in depth with it, but the last time i did a chart i was still technically a child. around 16 and didn't quite understand or hadn't developed enough for it to really fit my still developing sense of self.

After today and doing my chart and finishing the analysis i felt very confident and inspired. it finally fit! I was so happy reading and analyzing every aspect of it! Funniest thing I saw was I will have a child it will be a boy when i am 27. how amazing! i hope it is true!!

I really only do astrology chart readings for myself when i am losing my sense of direction and self. if i am feeling low on self esteem and my mind is clouded with my faults....astrology is great sense of confidence in pointing out the little things that make you feel good but no one seems to ever notice!

I wrote out mine and its 4 pages just for the planets in occupying houses....T.T, i want to type it out and print it for future reference LOL.

I also had to do another, the worse part was i didn't expect her until 5pm or 4pm...yes Hey xiao!! at 1:30pm XDD. I do not feel confident at all about her chart. Even though I know this person well....the chart confused me....maybe i was tired and messed something up...but i don't think so. Maybe I really truly don't know everything about her but...eh...this chart just seems off. I don't want to think she is fake but...i never would have thought her personaly was like what the chart is saying.

ahh well i typed up her first half which is 4 pages then i will start after this the other half maybe 3 pages of trines/conjunctions etc. Then print it out and explain with her. It's hard because i had to put it in lament terms LOL or there is no point in doing a chart.

My sister went to go see HS3. stoopid shit. Remember i wanted a hamster instead she found time to go to american eagle spend all her paycheck there...eh...oh people make me so mad. i can't never ask for nothing. it is ashame...luckily i am so self sufficient and relient!

On ricoche this forum i used to frequent is having a thread discussion about blk girls trying to act the japanese way of cute and dress in Jfashion. it is a little annoying as i think it will create a rift between what blk ppl do like jfashion. I know its obvious that we are darker skinned but that doesn't mean we don't have personalities or interests in fashion such as that! A lot of asian/white/blk people have the same interest okay. i thought fashion reflect your inner being not your skin color T.T, so i don't know why anyone would think they could not do a fashion based on their race. yes if you go to japan maybe they will be like wow cool...its different but the japanese people are dressing different too its not normal to dress in tons of clips okay...so your both different in one way or another.

im off to probably catch some Z's and finish her chart T.T, hopefully this part i will do now will be easier.

oh and...i finally finished getting love contract!!! yay now my poor pc can relax!



Wow last night was the first night I wanted to sleep in my room. Just so you know I've probably gone more than 2 months without sleeping in my own bedroom consecutive. its been about 2 weeks since i last slept in my room. So yesterday I put on music Station and started Weaving the hair. About 2 hours and I said I would go to sleep.

I was almost finish with the hair then i looked down on the side of my bed and there was a bug!!!! omg i was so freaked. So then i knocked it off my bed and got up to look for it but i didn't see it...so i continued to weave then i spotted it on my garbage can! so i took my slipper and whammed it XDD

then didn't see it...so i said "ahh maybe i didn't kill it" so i left and said to hell if i am sleeping in there.

then this morning i saw it dead in the garbage can. yes!!

wow i have gone 1 whole week without speaking 1 word to my youngest sister. she has betrayed me....ugh...aish.

I'm pretty pissed off right now. that is probably why i am writing an entry. it's such a shame how much i sacrifice for the people close to me and i don't even get what i give out in return. it's mind blowing. i hate being so agreeable to people expecting to you know be repaid later when i need something...tsk how wrong i am.

well i'm off for now. i fixed my myspace. i have to delete some people i have about 182...i have been lenient lately.




Wow Today was so boring!
<----I can't find anything to go with those shoes!!!

Finish the hair---> I still have to add more tracks to the back so that it will be wearable everywhere!

I fell asleep before 4pm. I was so tired because I had to help bring in some of our lawn/porch/backyard items.

I want to take some cute pictures but I don't have any fake eyelashes so that will wait XD.

I'm really broke and it's not like I want to buy anything it's just depressing anyways.

I sctually don't have anything to blog about today. that is really annoying and suprising lol so I guess that is all for today!





Wei! looky my balloons i got from my friends are still floating after a couple weeks. some amazing balloons right!

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So remember i mentioned in an earlier post about talking with my mom? Forcefully I did....I still don't feel any lighter or better about my situation. that disappointments me really. I guess that talking it out stuff does not work on me. D:

All today I didn't do anything productive. D:, i fell asleep on the living room floor!!! Remind me not to do that again! I had a dream in chinese omg you know why??? My sister was watching 4 straight episodes of Ài Qíng Hé Yuē. Not cool at all, i can't remember anything else about my dream except it was in chinese and outside in a crowded street. it was disturbing! Sounds will eithor come into my dreams or wake me up. when i am tired they just come in my dreams. like music will play in my dreams if music is on in reality etc.

Right now I will spend the rest of my night in my room sewing a hair piece/wig! I'm a little tired but not exhausted.

I'll post pictures of it tomorrow!



Hello Blog.

I'm actually waiting to watch the second episode of 黑糖瑪奇朵. I will watch it later tonight with my sister.

I'm really nervous for this afternoon. I have to talk to my mom. I'm so nervous and don't really want to. she is not my first choice of people i like to talk about with my emotions. I just have to talk to someone though, i've learn from the past that it is not a good thing to hold your emotion/thoughts in all the time. just right now i have no one i can feel really comfortable to talk to about some things.

Yesterday my sister cooked on the grill. Ohmy god it was so cold outside and she was cookin ribs on the grill with hot dog and cooked rice and ummm...kai lan! i said wtf...this is not no BBQ! It was really good though.

We got into a small arguement because she promised me she would buy me a new hamster friday....but then she want to see highschool musical 3 with her friends. i said omg you won't have time to buy me my hamster...and she said she was going to find a way. i just wanted her to admit that there was no way she could make time..and just tell me no so i told her to forget it.

Then i was trying to convince her to go to school to be chef (her second choice)...but she really wants to teach. it's just so bad because she's not really good academically. i just don't want her to be disappointed or waste her time. ahh maybe i was a little overbearing and stepping over the line with telling her that...she wouldn't make a good teacher.

what else....I feel really depressed but i'm not ready to admit it yet. it's so embarrassing haha. i think thats why i just watch dramas that are comedy. I'm thinking of saving up for a cosmetic procedure....my mom said once i was 18 i could get it and i really need it. i don't want to keep this scar anymore. there is so much on my brain haha. i love this blogspot!







Hello! I came from the world of livejournal! This is my first post here on this blog. I switched to blogspot because i felt really bored with livejournal. I also feel blogspot is something more for me!

I hope soon to figure out how to make a template. This journal will be more personal even if it cannot be private like livejournal.

You all can know me by Xiao. I really don't know why but xiao character is my favorite (小). my name in chinese is (安吉拉) not really pretty in characters except for An which means peace and ji which brings luck!!

I'm 19 (20 in january). You'll find me in diverse areas of pittsburgh (where) i live. I have dreams of starting my own business...even just something small and dragging my favorite sister in with me. I've yet to convince her! We'll travel around the world to gather information and soon put our...er..my dream to action!

I enjoy monokuro boo, and many of my things are black and white....sometimes pink for hello kitty or leopard print. i agree that simple is best and try to avoid many of lifes complexities. i'm a very simple gal, very agreeable and sometimes thats to your advantage!

I love food such as spaghetti, ice cream, burgers, popcorn, sooo many great foods i do not dare to list them all!

You'l find me on my days off eithor browsing through stores. not really shopping, i am a self proclaimed penny pincher! I really enjoy asian drama's. Taiwanese and korean the most! I can't help but say the comedies are over the top!

I'm not in school yet, but I am trying to figure out a way to attend a higher learning institution soon as possible.

Business, i'd like to study of course!

I'm really strange and don't speak english clearly enough...without sounding like an idiot!

friends are nice, but i'm a little self centered haha.